Saturday, September 23, 2006
Saturday, September 16, 2006
Wish upon a star
Friday, September 15, 2006
mostly you scanrú me because I'm still thinking about tú d’ainneoin gach rud...
Saturday, September 09, 2006
The Plain White T's
Saturday, September 02, 2006
Money makes the world go 'round.
Can I just make an observation on myself? I wrote "Finally, a way out"....finally? I haven't even been back in NJ for a month and already I'm that desperate. That is both pathetic and very telling about how I feel.
Friday, September 01, 2006
I signed up last night on the internet and this afternoon they rang me. Talk about promising. I was so excited I got up from my seat and did a little dance as the man asked me if I had considered where I might want to go yet.
"NUI Galway" shake shake.
It is also very scary how content and pleased I am knowing I have a pretty good chance of being in Galway this time next year. I have been Little Miss Apathy about life for quite some time. At my high school graduation I was bored out of my mind. Junior prom? My date was a jerk and I wore the first dress I saw at the store and did my own hair. At the pictures, I stuck my tongue out a lot...there was nothing else to do. High school parties? Another opputunity to avoid getting my ass grabbed.
But going to Ireland every summer? Jumping out of my seat with excitement. I went with my parents last May, because they had business to attend to, and I was in school the day I had to leave. I was so excited I couldn't even breathe. And I don't believe I have ever been so pleasant before. It always makes me genuinely happy and I always genuinely ache for it. I think I'll write another separate entry about this...probably tonight, because I've been thinking about it so much.
I really hope this whole study abroad thing works out, really.
Ps-Damn, it is COLD for it only be September 1st.
Finally, a way out
It happened when I came home and went on the computer. After writing on this thing, which almost always leads to me crying frustrated tears, I checked my college email. There was facebook friend's requests and college "Fall Frenzy" emails telling me that I should "COME OUT FOR CHEERLEADING" and to "COME SEE THE GREEK FAMILIES!" clearly, I won't be doing either.
And then I got the greatest email I have ever gotten. Seriously. I only say its the greatest one because it evoked so many happy feelings. Its was from our school's global education office. I was aware that our school offered a study abroad program to places all across Europe, including Cork. However, Cork did not offer any liberal arts programs and you can't just sign up to go undeclared.
However, for the first semester ever they are offering study abroad at NUI Galway.
Needless to say, I cried tears of happiness, jumped up and down, did a little dance and then kissed the computer screen.
This is my way out.
Thursday, August 31, 2006
The more I think, the less I believe it & the more I want you here with me
"College isn't different from high school, it is COMPLETELY different"
"College is what you make it!"
"Be positive and work hard, you'll be fine!"
We watched skits by the peppy peer leaders who tried too hard to be street and use silly slang that I've never heard outside of a rap song. They overacted (ok, so maybe I'm a theatre snob...it is my minor) and the situations were candy floss versions of friendships and life. Easy ways out for things like partying roommates and dates that went too far. The head of counseling came out and said "If you have problems with eating, suicidal thoughts, addictions or know someone who could be in trouble just contact the counselors!"
No one told me what to do if I already felt awkward and out of place. I'm used to it by now, but I always feel weird in group situations like this mostly because I never know how to talk to American kids when I first meet them. All of my American friends have said their first impressions of me were things like "Well, to be honest...I thought you were foreign. At least Canadian" and "In middle school, I thought you were home schooled because you were so different from everyone else"
Which is true. I guess I am different. & I talk funny. Actually, I just don't have a Jersey accent. Let me tell you...that means you talk funny where I'm from and apparently at school too.
In conclusion, I always feel a teensy bit weird. But I made some friends, got my ID (I look high in my photo) and registered for classes. Macro Economics, Sociology, Maths, English and Acting.
The end of my first college experience.